I am "new".  I have 2 children, and I have lost 3.  The first time I was pregnant, my husband and I had only been married 9 months and we were really excited that we would get to be parents so soon.  Our first doctor's office visit was an "event" we were ready for. But we were unprepared for the news that our baby had no heartbeat.  At 8 weeks and 6 days, our baby had died.  No explanation.  I trusted my doctor, and after I insisted I wait a week for proof that my baby was dead I did what my doctor thought was best and had my first D&C.  I never really mourned that baby.  I did not understand what I had experienced.  Sound dumb?  Sometimes my husband and I would talk about how old our child would have been.  We just thought maybe we weren't to have children because we never used birth control and after 4 1/2 yrs of marriage we had not gotten pregnant again.

Then suddenly a wonderful thing happened...a positive pregnancy test. YIPPEE! But a "county" doctor said (after 2 painful pelvic exams) there was no way my uterus had a baby. I called my old doctor and he rushed me in for a u/s and surprise-I was 11 weeks and 6 days pregnant!  I had a fairly normal pregnancy and and delivery of my son-Terry Dean, Jr. (6/21/1995).

Then 13 months later, surprise-another positive pregnancy test.  After 4 months of spotting and my doctor saying, "Gee, I don't know why you are bleeding", I transferred to a mid-wife so that I could experience a birth without all the inducing and hospital interference. I had stopped the bleeding by the 5th month and at 41 weeks, delivered my baby girl-Myranda Fayth (4/14/1997).

In April 2000, a very well known hospital (in Houston) did a study on cervical exams.  I participated.  They did a pregnancy test.  I tested negative (which I expected), and they did a biopsy of my cervix (part of the study).  A month later, I was testing positive for pregnancy and my original doctor did a u/s.  I was 9 weeks pregnant.  Urine pregnancy tests are not accurate!I bled and bled and my doctor would again say, "Gee, I don't know why you are bleeding."

On July 8, 2000, I was visiting a friend and felt a pain.  I had a urine test, which was negative, but I was spotting a lot (like every 3-4 days for 4-5 days at a time).  I had been having some problems with my periods the last couple of months. They had me do blood work and they do an u/s to rule out pregnancy.  They said the u/s showed no pregnancy, and then 2 days later they called to say my blood work says I am pregnant.  Confusing, but exciting!

They have an appointment for me to see a high risk pregnancy doctor, and they want me to come and repeat the blood work.  It has been 5 days of me, my husband, and children, and family bonding with my baby and of my husband and I planning our 3rd of 5 children! When they called with the results, they said that my hormone levels were dropping, and they were calling in some methergin!  I had miscarried!  I was shocked!  WHAT?!?

I called the high risk doctor, and they moved my appointment up.  They did an u/s in their office and they found an ectopic pregnancy!  I was devastated! My OB and the high risk doctor wanted me to take the methotrexate injection.  I agreed that was the best option, so I did.

It has been 3 1/2 days.  I have not ever told my story like this, until now.  To you after looking at your site.  I don't know what to do now.  How do I research and get info? I am not good at this. I don't know how to use the internet very well.  I am one of those that checks e-mail every couple of days and surfs a tiny bit.  I like the phone and real voices and books!

My doctor is repeating my blood work tomorrow (the 4th day).  I understand that if my hormone levels are dropping and finally get to 0 then I am okay.  Then what?  What do I do? How do I find out the info I need? I am just OVERWHELMED!

I am so grateful that God gave me 2 children to raise and love (Psalm 127:3), but I would like more and I am so confused at what my body is doing.  I did find out that my doctor is pretty sure that my uterus is septated, not bicornuate, and that is why they think I had the ectopic. I think they are also confused. I hope I did not upset anyone with this info.