Kim and Curt's Story

We lost our little baby in October of 1997.  To a lost little heart beat.  How saddened we
were and our lives have never been the same.  We kept trying to have a little one, and had to go through so many tests.  Then in October of 1999, we found out we were pregnant again.  What a wonderful thing!  I made my appointment, and then two weeks before it, I had severe pain at work.  I thought it was just the stomach flu.  Then, 20 minutes later (in my heart I knew something was wrong), I walked myself to the emergency room.  I work in a hospital.

I waited  for the results and tried to contact my husband while I was in such pain.  I was getting weaker by the moment, and my husband finally arrived.  They did a lot of blood work and then finally after about 2 to 3 hours, they figured it out. Our hearts sunk, our little one was not going to make it and we knew that I was in grave danger.  I never in my life seen doctors move so quick!

I woke up after surgery in severe pain-pain that I never in my life had felt before.  My heart was so broken, I prayed and prayed and prayed!  I blamed the world and I blamed myself. How could I be in so terrible a mess? Since that day, I have never forgotten either of our little ones and I know in my heart that they are there in Heaven waiting for us and looking down on us.

I can feel them each and every moment of my life, and my husband can too!  A little piece of us is up there with them and we know that. It has been a hard struggle, and I endured more tests to see what was wrong.  We finally did insemination, and after two tries (results NOT pregnant),
my life was falling apart.  I had no hope and NO FAITH!  My husband was silent all the time.  We were staying close, but I believe I was drifting away into my own little world of sorrow.  No matter how much I tried to get out, I could not. 

I know what a lot of you are going through-can't look at babies, can't look at pregnant women, can't function through daily tasks. Because of FAITH our little miracle finally came-came as a wonderful gift from our father above (HEAVENLY FATHER).  She's is such a beautiful gift, she is so perfect, so gentle and pure. She has become our little sunshine.  Every day I look at her and thank the Lord for the gift he has given to us.  He has trusted us with one of his children.

Don't ever give up, there is hope! If on this earth your child does not come, someday in heaven your child will be there with you.

Thank you so much for the support the love and the prayers. Our little ones birthday was September 12, 2001. Our gift from GOD!