Christina's Story (2)

I am 31 years old.  My husband Brian and I were together for 6 1/2 years before we got married.  We will celebrate our 3rd anniversary in September.  Our story begins in December 2000 when we decided it was time to stop taking the birth control pill.  I had been on the pill for approximately 15 years.  We assumed it would take a while before I got pregnant.  You know all about those myths?

I bled on and off from the end of December to the beginning of April.  I once again assumed it was my menstrual period and the body adjusting to the big change.  Apparently, so did everyone else.  I started to get severe pains on my left side of my abdomen.  I went to see my doctor about the bleeding and the pains.  It was at this time it was discovered that I had a cyst and an ectopic pregnancy in my left fallopian tube.  I had no idea I was pregnant.  I had never even heard of an ectopic pregnancy before. 

They removed the cyst and pregnancy through surgery.  Fortunately, they were able to save my tube.  I was back in the hospital 3 months later complaining of a fever and pains in the left side of my abdomen again.  It was my OB/GYN'S opinion that the prior surgery got infected leaving an abscess in my tube.  My GYN performed the surgery to remove the abscess and unfortunately, the damaged left tube and ovary.  Needless to say, my body has been through quite a bit in 3 months.  My doctor says I am at a high risk of another ectopic pregnancy due to all my scar tissue.  She recommends we consider IVF treatments.

My husband seems to be fine.  He stands behind whatever decision I make for us.  God bless him!  I, on the other hand, am a different story.  I am sad, angry and confused.  I am sad because I lost our baby.  I was powerless over the situation.  Angry at who, I have no idea.  I guess maybe because bad things happen to people for no good reason.  Confused because I don't know what we should do.  I realize it is risky trying to conceive the natural way.  IVF also sounds so scary.  My desire to have a baby has become very strong especially when I realized I may not have a successful pregnancy.  Life is funny like that.  I have no intentions on giving up hope.  I truly believe everything happens for a reason.  I also believe that good comes out of bad.  Life is full of bumpy roads.  We will constantly face tradgedies, challenges and obstacles along the way.  Many of us will become stronger and wiser when faced with these.  I know I have and will.  I hope you do too!

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