Ann-Marie's Story

My life fell apart when I was diagnosed with a heteroectopic (one in the womb and one lurking in the left fallopian tube), which was diagnosed (when I collapsed) in January 2000. The result of which was that we lost two, what would have been two beautiful babies. I was probably one of the most selfish people who visited the website.  I was unable to send many posts.  I just got extremely upset reading about other people though I could relate to individual people through my own feelings.

We went for a check-up in April 2000 when I discussed being put on the waiting list for IVF treatment (it can take ages in the UK). The doctor basically laughed at me and said that as we had no problem conceiving previously (we'd only been off the pill for three months), we couldn't be considered for another 12 months at least.

At the end of June 2000 Andy, my husband, recognized the symptoms of me being pregnant and told me so. I rudely informed him that I was NOT pregnant and that it was just as I was feeling at the time! The next morning I did a pregnancy test and it was positive!!! Oh God, I did not believe it. And then I was terrified--what if it was a repeat of what had previously happened? I think I "wasted" the first 20 weeks of pregnancy through worrying that I would loose "it" again.

I was so stressed that "it" was not planned in the conventional sense, but we weren't doing anything to prevent "it", due to the fact that I only had one tube left! Well, five more pregnancy tests were done at home, and they were all positive. I finally went to the doctor.

YES I AM PREGNANT!!!

I sailed through pregnancy and loved every minute of it. I also loved every minute of giving birth. It was the best experience of my life. I gave birth to a small 6 lb. 3 oz. baby girl, Rebecca. Rebecca now weighs, at 6 months, 18lbs. She will never replace my twins, but I I do believe that my two beautiful babies were sent to prepare me for the wonder of having my beautiful baby girl.

My twins would have been 1 on the August 7, 2001 and it was extremely difficult to comprehend why I felt so devastated when I was holding my 5-month old baby.  They are all unique and she will never replace my twins, but she helps makes life worth living again!

I hope that this will bring comfort to people and apologize if my story causes anyone any distress.

Best Wishes.